Reunions

The kind with your ex-schoomates. Redundant. Pointless. Sometimes pretty annoying and even awkward.

I think I've written about my very blah relationship with my friends from secondary school (technically, they're also my friends from primary school). Most times I assumed that they'd also felt the same way about me, since I've hardly seen or heard from them since I changed schools in high school.

But then I just had to go and do that lunch a couple of months ago. Then there was that weird afternoon with my friend who'd moved to New Zealand. And now suddenly I'm personally being tagged in multiple Facebook posts to meet up. I just don't get it. The ones I DID meet up with were the ones I'd always been pretty okay with and wouldn't mind hanging out with from time to time. The ones who are hounding me now are the ones who never seemed to like me all that much and I felt most uncomfortable around.

In addition to the multiple post-tagging, some have even resorted to texting. Here's one I got at 7.30 this morning [7.30 THIS MORNING! First reminder why I'm no longer that close to this person lol].

"Hi! Is this Penelope? We're having a gathering today at ******. U probably were too busy to come on fb so I thought I'd let u know by sms too."

1. If you're not sure if this is my number, I probably don't know who the heck you are either. At least identify yourself!

2. No I'm not too busy, as you can see from the many other posts I've commented on in the past 12 hours (oh maybe not..I think I restricted your access after the last time you posted some lame pseudo-deep thing on my wall). I just couldn't be bothered to participate in that thread of mindless and insincere 'I miss yous' all round.

3. For the 5 years that I wasn't included, nobody bothered to text me...why start interrupting my sleep now?

Don't get me wrong. I don't feel any bitterness or anger or anything negative towards these people. I just never really fit in well with them and didn't mind leaving them behind. Changing schools, though for other reasons, was the best social decision I've ever made. I'd never felt more at home with these people than the friends I made after changing schools. Besides, clearly for a long while none of them felt compelled to keep whatever relationships we had out of a coma anyway. Initially when we'd all just left school for a year or two, I did meet up with them a couple of times. Everyone else was still so close and basically I felt like the only person who didn't know what was going on. It got to a point where it was just a bit pointless to even pretend to still be friends. The annoying 7.30 am girl tried. She was into some lame (and somewhat creepy) guy at my new school. She and I were close enough to be able to go out to dinner just the two of us. But then one night when I'd been prepared for a girls night out, she brought this guy along. She was picking me up, so not only did she bring this guy along, she brought this creep to my house! Later she suggested we hang out and talk some more at my house. Except that when she got there she was afraid of my cute little dog and insisted I tie him up! That was the last straw.

Sorry, girls. You lot just aren't important enough for me to make time for you right now. Maybe sometime when I'm so bored I've got nothing better to do.

Honesty would be nice for a change

It's been insanely busy around here. Between my project, school work, running a team of really immature adults and my insane family, I haven't really had time to breathe. It got to a point where I was pretty close to tears on Tuesday morning during my lab when the stupid lecturer told me off for not preparing some stupid log book which is of no use and was therefore at the bottom of my priority list. (Just in case any stickler for rules is reading this, yes I am aware of the purpose of a lab log book. You just have no idea how in that particular lab it's of absolutely no value.)

Anyways, it's a bloody vicious cycle. People at home don't care that you've got all this work to do - they just want you help with Chinese New Year preparations; your project and supervisor aren't gonna care if you've got family things to deal with, you still have a deadline to meet; your foreign language lecturer doesn't care that her subject should be the least of your academic worries-here have a test at 8am. And most of all, stupid members of the club you run don't care if you've got deadlines to meet when passing on info to the university management. They'll take all the time they like just to give you their own bloody personal details!

It just really annoys me when people are spineless and dishonest, although both don't necessarily come together all the time. But point is...there's this girl. She's obviously more keen on this other club she's also joined. But thing is she already said she wanted to go for this tournament with us and now when it's time to finalise things, she actually told her teammates she doesn't really want to go. But of course she doesn't dare tell me. And so she's been avoiding my calls, texts, Facebook messages, emails, sarcastic spamming of the Facebook updates she has the time to put up but no time to send me the necessary details... I just don't get it. It's WAY too late to say she doesn't feel like going now. A month and a half ago, they'd all already said they were interested, her included. And we signed up like a month ago. And now just on a whim she just doesn't feel like going. WTH! And I'm guessing it's mostly because she's got other stuff to do for the other club. Which would've been perfectly fine with me if she'd just said "No I don't want to go because I think I'm not really that into the stuff you guys do" like a month and a half ago. But nooooo avoid my calls, emails, texts etc etc. Sure...sticking your head in the sand makes you seem all that much less annoying!

Oops

Gina and I finally decided to go back to working out together. I'd been running late all day and my schedule was like a 12 car pileup. Poor Gina had to sit in the car and wait for me for a quarter of an hour outside the gym. As we head up the first flight of stairs to the gym, everything still seemed fine. Until we rounded the corner up to the next flight of stairs...where I almost walked into the sign they placed there saying they've closed the gym for upgrading for two days. Agh!!!!

And so, instead of burning off a few calories, we went across the street to the bubble milk tea place and put on a few more over a game of Monopoly Deal.

So much for losing weight.

Priorities

A week ago, I thought I was pretty smart. I had a new years resolution for all the different areas of my life. A few days later, I realised it wouldn't be so easy to try to juggle everything. Uni is keeping me busier than ever - even though I'm only taking about half the number of credit hours I normally do. The subjects are getting tougher....anyways, I took one of those magazine quizzes today about which area of your life probably needs the most work. Ouch. I expected it to be relationships or joy, being the grouchy mean person I am. But nooooo...it was health! WTH?!?!?! So now I'm a grouchy mean person who's got blinkers on and have been falsely thinking I'm making good progress as far as health is concerned? Then again, I have kind of gotten lazy. So lazy that even my regular Pilates routine seemed tough the other day.

And today, I did like the dumbest thing ever. It was one of those recruitment things companies do at universities. Today we were told there would only be 30 spots for some interview and we actually had to register online for it even though it was supposedly just some career fair at my uni. So at lunchtime, I quickly did the registration and came up with a CV in 15 minutes (yes the company wanted us to submit a CV instead of fill in a form at their website! agh!) I thought I did a pretty good job. Until a couple of hours later...when I realised I forgot the most important thing - my current CGPA!!!!! WTH! And there's no way to even edit my application at all. Sigh. I'm such a moron.

What a day!

Last night I considered a career in PR. It was one of those times when I freaked out that current classmates are already checking out Masters programmes and my former schoolmates who went abroad are already bragging on Facebook about getting recruited before they even graduate. So I went online and did a little preliminary job hunting. Just to see what's out there and what I might be interested in. But after today, really, I don't think I can spend my days putting up with people and being nice to them even when I feel like strangling them.

Admittedly there's still a bit of me that's a spoiled little princess who believes the world should revolve around me. Thus, I get pretty damn annoyed when the axis is shifted away from me a wee bit. But still, I think much of my annoyance is still pretty reasonable. Morons who don't know how to drive and leave a huge scratch on your car, morons who don't know how to drive and yet think they have to 'teach you a lesson' on the road by swerving in front of you and not allowing you to overtake them, annoying parents who'd rather gossip on the phone than help you with the huge bunch of things you have to carry out of the car (most of which belong to them)...sigh.

At risk of sounding of too much like a spoiled brat I had to stop myself from bitching about everything I wanted to bitch about to my man. Thank God I saw Jo online. Otherwise, I might have burst. Sigh...I now understand how valuable it is just to have someone who'll listen without judgement...just to let you get it out of your system. It's really annoying when I rant to someone and they keep trying to rationalise things or tell me "Well look at it from the other person's point of view..." AGH! The whole problem is that asshole who pissed me off didn't consider my feelings now did they? So yes, I do possess rational thought. Just let me be pissed and let off steam!!! Grr...