Thursday, August 12, 2010
uncertainty uncertainty
I hate it when there are so many decisions to make concurrently. And each decision is somehow dependent on the other. Like imagine those super complicated flow charts with yes go this way and no go the other way and they're all interconnected and...urgh...
Friday, July 30, 2010
Invade personal space much?
Seriously, what is with all these scary people out there these days?
About a week ago, as I was rushing to my violin class, I was stopped by this Korean woman who asked me if I had a religion. (That doesn't sound quite right. How do you ask people that? I'm just repeating what she said but I don't think that's the way to ask someone what their religion is.) I already guessed but her second question confirmed it for me. "Do you go to church?" Well, I thought after 12 years of going to Christian schools I totally knew how to handle this. "Yes." And then I started to walk away. But she wouldn't leave me alone.
Her: Do you read the bible?
Me: Yes. (Really, this isn't entirely untrue.)
Her: Then you know this....
and she opens her book to some verse from the bible and proceeds to quiz me on the meaning of it and whatnot. [Insert ironic expletive here]
Really, she was so insanely persistent. What is this evangelist doing trying to convert someone who supposedly already goes to church?! So I pretend I can't understand her and try to walk away. Which is when this other guy who has been standing by the whole time then asks me to give them my phone number. Yeah. Right. Seriously, don't people know when to stop? Btw, no I'm not against people who are very supportive of their religion. Just don't like people who try to shove it down my throat.
Recently, some creepy dude has been writing seriously creepy stuff on my bff's blog. Like seriously. He claims to be someone we went to school with. And that he's one of her exes. I was there. She had no ex by that name. And definitely none with that level of grammar. Creep. *shudder*
About a week ago, as I was rushing to my violin class, I was stopped by this Korean woman who asked me if I had a religion. (That doesn't sound quite right. How do you ask people that? I'm just repeating what she said but I don't think that's the way to ask someone what their religion is.) I already guessed but her second question confirmed it for me. "Do you go to church?" Well, I thought after 12 years of going to Christian schools I totally knew how to handle this. "Yes." And then I started to walk away. But she wouldn't leave me alone.
Her: Do you read the bible?
Me: Yes. (Really, this isn't entirely untrue.)
Her: Then you know this....
and she opens her book to some verse from the bible and proceeds to quiz me on the meaning of it and whatnot. [Insert ironic expletive here]
Really, she was so insanely persistent. What is this evangelist doing trying to convert someone who supposedly already goes to church?! So I pretend I can't understand her and try to walk away. Which is when this other guy who has been standing by the whole time then asks me to give them my phone number. Yeah. Right. Seriously, don't people know when to stop? Btw, no I'm not against people who are very supportive of their religion. Just don't like people who try to shove it down my throat.
Recently, some creepy dude has been writing seriously creepy stuff on my bff's blog. Like seriously. He claims to be someone we went to school with. And that he's one of her exes. I was there. She had no ex by that name. And definitely none with that level of grammar. Creep. *shudder*
Monday, July 26, 2010
Week 2
Okay this is up a bit late. But all the same. I guess I'm getting a little more accustomed to my now pretty hectic schedule. Then again it could be because MY MAN IS BACK! It does make things seem a lot better. He's been awesome and the fact that he went to such lengths to surprise me when he got back early was just...*swoon* However, there's this annoying little fly buzzing around my ear (ok, translate: annoying girl sort of fb stalking him) that's giving me that feeling in my gut. I admit, it hasn't gotten to the point where I can make a proper claim. But seriously. What do girls do when our feminine intuition tells us something but if we were to tell our male counterparts so early on before their inferior (at such things) radars pick anything up, they'll probably think we're psycho, possessive, mean, insecure, etc. etc.? Grrr =.= I just wanna bitchslap that girl and tell her to bugger off.
Another feeling in my gut: my work is going to be like a 10 car pileup if I don't stop obsessing over such things and get back to work. Ok, more like get started on work.
Nerdying it is.
Another feeling in my gut: my work is going to be like a 10 car pileup if I don't stop obsessing over such things and get back to work. Ok, more like get started on work.
Nerdying it is.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Week 1
Omg..It's only the end of my first week of semester and already I feel EXHAUSTED. Maximum number of units is 2o. At first I already thought that 18 was a bit much especially for my final year. But as of yesterday, I am taking 20 units. Why? I have to grab the opportunity that we've finally managed to round up 5 people who want to take level 3 German. Agh. And I've just read an email from our lecturer quite happily telling us that now that we're in level 3, it's high time all communication be in German.
So, now that holidays are over, how have I fared as far as my whole losing weight during the holidays thing goes? I lost a little over 2kg and my cargo pants finally fit again without any unsightly VPL. I'm pretty sure I still could use some more weight loss. Hopefully belly dancing and swimming will help keep the weight off and help me lose more weight. And hopefully all that stress that I'm already beginning to feel won't undo all the good working out does.
So, now that holidays are over, how have I fared as far as my whole losing weight during the holidays thing goes? I lost a little over 2kg and my cargo pants finally fit again without any unsightly VPL. I'm pretty sure I still could use some more weight loss. Hopefully belly dancing and swimming will help keep the weight off and help me lose more weight. And hopefully all that stress that I'm already beginning to feel won't undo all the good working out does.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Changing-growing-joining the herd?
In any relationship, be it with family, friends or your significant other; some kind of compromise is always required. Putting up with parents, cutting your friends some slack or trying to plase and get along better with your boyfriend or girlfriend. So where are the lines between growing as a person, being amiable, allowing someone to change you for the better or just plain giving up too much of who you really are just for them?
When it recently became apparent how much of a goody-two-shoes a friend's man really is, I think I felt enough outrage for both my friend and I combined. It wasn't so much that he was a goody-two-shoes himself but more that he seemed to be forcing one of my partners in crime into becoming a super holy goody-two-shoes, too, without seeming to consider that he should probably be the one who needs to loosen up a wee bit. I mean seriously, I know I sound a bit idealistic when I say this but come on, not every single bit of physical contact/excitement/show of affection is a slippery slope to erm...morally questionable acts. The other thing that worried me was that my friend seemed all too happy to be someone far more repressed than she really is just to conform with what Mr. GTS wants. It worried me that she seems to be becoming one of those people who make the whole world seem perfect and have picture perfect families (we all know how that usually turns out on tv) and one day I might not even hear of her troubles, regardless of how minute, let alone be there to help her anymore. Now that is a slippery slope that scares me.
But the more I thought about it, the more I wondered. Was I, in fact, the one holding her back from growing as a person? So what if she wanted to shed a bit of her wilder side? But then again, I still very much felt a little alarmed by how easy it seemed for her to morph into what Mr. GTS felt was more appropriate. Is it too simplistic to think that well, if you find someone inappropriate, then they're not the appropriate one for you?
I still can't figure it out. Am I being the concerned friend or am I being the one who isn't allowing her friend to grow? I'm still trying to keep an open mind about it and see it both ways. And the scariest bit is what if this is exactly what happens everytime my man and I get into a huge fight when he's 'done wrong' according to me or when he diplomatically tells me that something I do bothers him?
When it recently became apparent how much of a goody-two-shoes a friend's man really is, I think I felt enough outrage for both my friend and I combined. It wasn't so much that he was a goody-two-shoes himself but more that he seemed to be forcing one of my partners in crime into becoming a super holy goody-two-shoes, too, without seeming to consider that he should probably be the one who needs to loosen up a wee bit. I mean seriously, I know I sound a bit idealistic when I say this but come on, not every single bit of physical contact/excitement/show of affection is a slippery slope to erm...morally questionable acts. The other thing that worried me was that my friend seemed all too happy to be someone far more repressed than she really is just to conform with what Mr. GTS wants. It worried me that she seems to be becoming one of those people who make the whole world seem perfect and have picture perfect families (we all know how that usually turns out on tv) and one day I might not even hear of her troubles, regardless of how minute, let alone be there to help her anymore. Now that is a slippery slope that scares me.
But the more I thought about it, the more I wondered. Was I, in fact, the one holding her back from growing as a person? So what if she wanted to shed a bit of her wilder side? But then again, I still very much felt a little alarmed by how easy it seemed for her to morph into what Mr. GTS felt was more appropriate. Is it too simplistic to think that well, if you find someone inappropriate, then they're not the appropriate one for you?
I still can't figure it out. Am I being the concerned friend or am I being the one who isn't allowing her friend to grow? I'm still trying to keep an open mind about it and see it both ways. And the scariest bit is what if this is exactly what happens everytime my man and I get into a huge fight when he's 'done wrong' according to me or when he diplomatically tells me that something I do bothers him?
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Chivalry: Dead
I sure hope not. But I'm not holding my breath.
Our high school biology teacher is a petite woman, shorter than me even in her signature kitten heel slipers. She easily brings out the huge insectarium boxes out of the cabinet one by one until she finds the one she's looking for, ours; which she also heaves, with a bit more effort, out of the cabinet and leans it against a table. We all talk and catch up for awhile. She asks Gina and me how we're going to get it home and then decided that one of the guys should carry it to the car for us. It didn't happen.
Camera guy was leaning against the same table as the box was. So when she asked who was going to carry the box first, Singapore guy (another ex-classmate now studying in Singapore) quickly says to Camera guy, "You're nearer to it." I'll admit the box is freaking heavy. Everyone else's was made of plywood and cardboard or something, ours was custom made, out of metal. Gina had had it made and none of us had paid her anything for it, but it was definitely expensive. Anyways, all the way down the stairs, Camera guy bangs it against the stairs and I couldn't decide which was more worrying: him chipping the stairs or scratching the box. I just couldn't stand it and he took that as his excuse to essentially say "There you girls carry it yourselves." I'll admit it was a lot of effort and heavy but that's where I would've expected Singapore guy to volunteer to help.
Gina and I ended up taking turns carrying it on the long walk back to the car while carrying our own umbrellas because it was raining crazy heavily. The whole time neither of them made any attempt to take over carrying the thing, or even help us open the car door or get it into the car.
Sure, Gina and I managed it. But it makes me wonder...they couldn't have given up or avoided the task any faster. What ever happened to chivalry? Heck, what ever happened to just being plain courteous or helpful?
Make no mistake; I'm not one of those who are a disgrace to feminism and all that. I'm all for equality and equal rights and all. Truth is, if you look at it in another perspective, people who think women who expect men to carry heavier loads aren't getting with the whole feminism programme are probably either stuck in the dark ages themselves (come on, you really think how heavey a load you can carry, how far you can throw something, or just plain how strong you are determines how much rights you get? Really?!?!) or are men like my buddies Singapore guy and Camera guy who will find any lame excuse to tell girls "You go ahead and carry all that while we stand by and watch."
While I get it that being treated nicely isn't something to be expected but is more of a luxury to be pleasantly surprised by, I think all of us girls could do with being pleasantly surprised a bit more often.
Our high school biology teacher is a petite woman, shorter than me even in her signature kitten heel slipers. She easily brings out the huge insectarium boxes out of the cabinet one by one until she finds the one she's looking for, ours; which she also heaves, with a bit more effort, out of the cabinet and leans it against a table. We all talk and catch up for awhile. She asks Gina and me how we're going to get it home and then decided that one of the guys should carry it to the car for us. It didn't happen.
Camera guy was leaning against the same table as the box was. So when she asked who was going to carry the box first, Singapore guy (another ex-classmate now studying in Singapore) quickly says to Camera guy, "You're nearer to it." I'll admit the box is freaking heavy. Everyone else's was made of plywood and cardboard or something, ours was custom made, out of metal. Gina had had it made and none of us had paid her anything for it, but it was definitely expensive. Anyways, all the way down the stairs, Camera guy bangs it against the stairs and I couldn't decide which was more worrying: him chipping the stairs or scratching the box. I just couldn't stand it and he took that as his excuse to essentially say "There you girls carry it yourselves." I'll admit it was a lot of effort and heavy but that's where I would've expected Singapore guy to volunteer to help.
Gina and I ended up taking turns carrying it on the long walk back to the car while carrying our own umbrellas because it was raining crazy heavily. The whole time neither of them made any attempt to take over carrying the thing, or even help us open the car door or get it into the car.
Sure, Gina and I managed it. But it makes me wonder...they couldn't have given up or avoided the task any faster. What ever happened to chivalry? Heck, what ever happened to just being plain courteous or helpful?
Make no mistake; I'm not one of those who are a disgrace to feminism and all that. I'm all for equality and equal rights and all. Truth is, if you look at it in another perspective, people who think women who expect men to carry heavier loads aren't getting with the whole feminism programme are probably either stuck in the dark ages themselves (come on, you really think how heavey a load you can carry, how far you can throw something, or just plain how strong you are determines how much rights you get? Really?!?!) or are men like my buddies Singapore guy and Camera guy who will find any lame excuse to tell girls "You go ahead and carry all that while we stand by and watch."
While I get it that being treated nicely isn't something to be expected but is more of a luxury to be pleasantly surprised by, I think all of us girls could do with being pleasantly surprised a bit more often.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Vuvuzela drone killing World Cup atmosphere - World Cup News - FOX Sports on MSN
Vuvuzela drone killing World Cup atmosphere - World Cup News - FOX Sports on MSN
I totally agree with this! The games have been so boring because...well the games haven't been awesome. And no cheering from the crowd = those of us at home don't really feel the emotion (Actually, I'm not too sure those in the stadium can really feel anything but annoyed either thanks to the constant buzzing like a swarm of flies. I really do just feel like swatting them!) And seriously, who the hell can blow on those bloody things throughout the ENTIRE match and be actually watching it at the same time? What on earth was FIFA thinking when they allowed it?
I totally agree with this! The games have been so boring because...well the games haven't been awesome. And no cheering from the crowd = those of us at home don't really feel the emotion (Actually, I'm not too sure those in the stadium can really feel anything but annoyed either thanks to the constant buzzing like a swarm of flies. I really do just feel like swatting them!) And seriously, who the hell can blow on those bloody things throughout the ENTIRE match and be actually watching it at the same time? What on earth was FIFA thinking when they allowed it?
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